Oh gosh, can't believe I did it again ! Abandoned my blog for awhile.
Anyway what does it matter now that I'm back to blogging !!

One sunny morning, I got a call from dearest Genevieve to get married to her.
Woke up feeling excited, brush my teeth, bathe & get dressed.
Since its such a special day, I wanted to take pictures to keep this memory.

Guess where's that wonderful place to get married ? - there's no other place like Ikea.
First, we get to eat a really delicious lunch & then proceed our wedding ceremony.

Had 10 meatballs (RM9) & a slice of Daim (RM5.40) cake for lunch ! Yummylicious I tell ya.
And the best part, we shared the food. Owhh so loving (:

After lunch ...




But since it would be better if we had a 2 seater sofa,



We had a big argument, and I shoo-ed her out from the house !


While taking pictures, one bear caught fire on its back. Poor thing!!
It's time to sleep now. Waking up at 8am to help @ Sunway's Open day tomorrow.

Today All the time, when I don't get what I want, I will always throw a tantrum in front of my dad.
Since young, I always did that, because dad is always so nice and he never scolds me.

When I was younger, I remember how my dad & mum always quarrel because of me.
I wanted to buy everything I see in the mall, and dad who doesn't want to see me sad,
will always give in & buy whatever I wanted.

I was a pampered child. But during that time, my mum was very strict towards me.
I feel bad when they quarrel, and then realize that even if I don't get the thing I wanted,
it's actually not such a big deal.

But since now my mum is gone, I realize materials does not satisfy people.
You can have everything in the world, but without a family's love,
you are not complete.

I am happy that now my dad is able to provide well for me,
and I can always buy what I want and need.
That explains why my room is so messy & full of things now.

Even though I have everything I wanted, there's still an empty space in my life.
I have been doing so many things to try to fill in that empty space,
but now I know ... nothing can fill it.
It can never be filled unless I can have a mother's love.

I sometimes get angry that my dad can only provide tangible stuff for me,
but he can never give me the warmth & love that my mother gave.

I know I can't compare that way, but I can't control my feelings.

Have you ever felt so irritated or agitated by your parents & then
suddenly speak loudly or rudely to them?
It's only a slip of tongue, but I'm sure it hurt them a lot.
Only then, later to realize that you regretted what you did.

I have - a million of times. And after each & every time it happens,
I told myself that I will never let it happen again.

Yesterday, I wanted to get a new desk & asked my dad to accompany me to buy one.
But he said he was not free, as he wanted to do something else.
It wasn't such a big deal, but I do not know why I suddenly got so upset.

Unintentionally I threw tantrums and didn't want to talk to him the whole day.
I know, he was upset as well but I was too angry to talk like nothing happened.

So today, dad purposely came home early from work & took me out.
While scanning around for a new desk, I saw his facial expression looking sad.
Then he told me he has got a stomach ache & needed to go home.

That was when I realize how selfish I was being.
My current desk is in a good condition & I am on a holiday.

Why am I rushing to get a desk so urgently when it's not even important ?
Why did I hurt someone precious over such a small matter ?

Regretting every single bit of it now ):

I realize the only thing that keeps me blogging, is the change in my layout.
I always get bored of things easily & this is a trait that I hate in myself.

While composing this post, I'm actually having a really bad headache but,
what's the point of going to bed when I know I cannot sleep.

I'm feeling nervous because I'm getting back my results tomorrow.
Don't want to be disappointed again, like how I was with my SPM results.

Need to start posting up pictures in my blog soon.
Words without pictures is not pleasant to the eye :P

Anyhow, I'm feeling this withdrawal symptoms from korean drama.
My drama, with only a mere number of 16 episodes just over.

I wonder if it's normal, but I always feel sad when something over.
It's like something is missing from my life !!!

This guy in the drama, he's really cool, from head to toe.
He has a thousands of different hairstyles which all suits him so well.

Not only that, he wears guyliner (guy with eyeliners) & now,
I'm obsessed with guys that wears eyeliners.

Last Thursday before going to Maison, I even forced John to wear it !!!
Hahahah in the end, he really did. I drew it for him !
Trust me, John looked about a quarter as handsome as my korean guy (:

This entire week, I've been home watching Hong Kong dramas.
I'm watching Moonlight Resonance now, I know.. one era behind.

My dad says he is gonna sponsor me by buying more dramas for me,
just so that I will stay at home !! Aahhaha now I know what a bad daughter I've been.

Since I haven't been going out, I feel weird because I'm not spending money.
It's been almost 1 week since I bought something ):

I've found my favorite sushi place now - Sushi Zanmai that is !
The price is quite reasonable & their salmon is soo fresh !
Arghh hungry now.

I'm gonna try to go to bed. Wish me luck for tomorrow. (:

This is really weird. It's 12am and I'm here composing a post instead of being tuck in bed. I actually woke up feeling tad angry with people who seem to take me for granted.

Alright, maybe back then I was being a small girl, but now - seriously f*ck yourself please. I promise I will not put up with all those attitude anymore. Life goes on, and I will continuously meet new people, hundred times, if not a thousand times better than youuu !

That's all I'm gonna rant about you because I realize it's wasting my blog space (: Enough bout that, life has been treating me well. It is true that all my worries and allergies will go away when my exam ends. I hope in future I will not have to feel that stress anymore !

Have been shopping for my CNY clothes for the pass few days & eating at my heart's desire. It's a no wonder why I've been putting on weight !! Whatever it is, I'm gonna appreciate this good appetite I'm having now - since it only comes once in a while (:

I'm only praying for the pimples to leave me alone. Has been so long & still it is not getting better. Arghh !! Adding to my stress. I really feel like going on a vacation to a nice & clean beach. Unfortunately, planning is always the difficult part.

Yippes ! My KDrama finally done loading. Off to watching it now :)